Lately I've been feeling so...weird. I feel like everything I do is out of character, but then I can't help but think that maybe it isn't out of character. Maybe this is me and I was just so consumed with other things before that I didn't really know who I was. Or more that I lost who I am and I'm finally, slowly but surely, rediscovering myself. Whatever it is, it's bizarre. I've been making decisions that I cannot decide whether or not I regret. It is, for lack of a better phrase, mind-boggling. Today while my friend M and I were discussing life and chain-smoking clove cigarettes on the balcony, she pretty much summed it up with her claim: "I had a liberation!"
Okay, so, I am extremely embarrassed to admit that out of pure curiosity, I have fallen into the tweenage obsession that is Twilight. The writing isn't anything out of the ordinary and the love story is cheesier than anything Nicholas Sparks ever wrote, but I just can't help it. I even picked up the first book and told myself "this isn't your style, why are you purchasing this, just see the movie and let it be." However, not only did I like the first book, I finished the second book in less that 24 hours. I am 21 years old. This is inappropriate. And it's such a shallow obsession because I honestly would not be so obsessed if Robert Pattinson wasn't playing Edward Cullen in the movie. Sick.
This needs to stop right now, I am not 13.
Anyway, Monday night, M & I went to indie night at a bar here and did a ridiculous amount of raging. Of course, I have no pictures because I was much too busy dancing. It was a really fun night and my favorite part was discovering that one of my favorite bars sells one of my favorite (guilty pleasure!) alcoholic beverages--Sparks. Honestly it is such a silly (and not to mention extremely unhealthy) drink, but it's so much fun. After coming home that night I discovered some new music and had a bit of fun.
I leave you with this, all of which have proven true to their word:
- Pronunciation: \ˈli-bə-ˌrāt\
- Function: transitive verb
- Inflected Form(s): lib·er·at·ed; lib·er·at·ing
- Etymology: Latin liberatus, past participle of liberare, from liber
- Date: circa 1623
2: to free from combination
3: to take or take over illegally or unjustly
Uncharacteristically reckless behavior. Goodnight, love.